When It Said So...

Da beberapa hari simpan 1 citer, not telling anybody about it..semuanya berpunca daripada sikap sendr sebetulnya..a few days ago, ada 1 gurl call then talkd nonsence! sebbnya ape?? sebb bf die! hah bf die! memang dulu bf die bf orang tapi kami da putus dgn cara baik..( baik ke?? org yg tinggalkan die!) whatever.. that gurl cakap org nak baik semula la, nak ambik hati semula la, nak sayang semula la, bla..bla..bla..orang diam jer, dengar jer, malas nak ptg mood gurl nie tgh xcited bercakap..so gurl nie meluahkan seluruh jiwa raganya yang tidak puas hati diiring dengan air mata.. tapi maaf la, org sikit pun tak rasa kesal mahupun simpati..nak kata zalim pun kata la..org kenal bf die, org pun kenal die..memang elok la buku dgn ruas da bertemu...

setelah panjang lebar komplainnya, then she ask me a questn. either it was right?? org pun cakap:
ekekeke (sambil gelak) huh itu jer masalahnya?? da kwn dgn *&^% da berapa lama?? org da tinggalkan die berapa lama?? dulu sape yg nak sgt kat *&^%?? then skrg awak yg binsing2 (terlebh bising..) pulak??? selama awak kenal saya, pernah sekali saya tipu awak?? nak compare pulak ker antara awak dgn *&^%?? sama jer takde beza.. awak nak cakap ape, ckp la. nak buat ape buat la. cuba try tanya *&^%, sape cari sape??? jgn la nak main ambush2 jer..jahat2 org pun, ape2 keptsn bukan org yg buat.. apa yg org buat adalah untk diri sendr jer, tak libatkan org lain pun. then tanya lagi *&^%, sape yg mintak sape balik pada sape?? then awak akan tau jawapnnya!

then the gurl continue nagging..n i answerd:
org tak suruh die call, cari @ nak fikir ape2 da pasal org..org pun tak suruh awak ajr die bersimpati dgn org. im big enough 4 my life! hey, he is nothg 4 me..yes, i really2 love him be4, but if today there is some felling 4 him, it jus 4 a friend..1 more thing..do u think i still want a people who did the same thing to other gurls n to me, myself?? Da panggil awak sayang, then panggil org pulak sayang???? Ada Perasaan ker? Nope! i hate it..i hate it when a people treat me nicely, love me, but then he treat others nicely, love others n etc..hoho pls la..cant accept it at all...so, think wisely..anyway, im sorry i cant help u smhow..end..

huh then, i think again what i said to that gurl..emm some of them are right..but smtime i become fed up to all of dis..make me tired..i didnt begging people to love me. i didnt begging people to accept me. i didnt begging people 4 anythg! it is hard to understnd that?

org pun manusia jugak..tak lebih tak kurang nak jugak happy tanpa rasa bersalah ker, rasa sangsi ker atau ape2 rasa yang tak menyenangkan..nak buat mcm mane, org memang jenis pendendam. org tau org jenis kasar, tapi jgn la nak compare @ nak blame if smtg happen.. kdg2 org lain fikir org takde perasaan ke eh?? buat org mcm2? cuma org jer tak tau nak tegur, tak tau nak mintak.ntah, rasa benda2 yang ada semuanya menyusahkan..mujur la rasional lagi, tau semua benda ada tujuan. org lain blh layan org lain dgn baik, dgn sopan santun, tapi nape tak dgn org ehh? emm takpe la, ada masa utk org fikir sendr.. tula bukan senang hidup org..ada jer masalahnya..org lain ada lebih yang lain. lebih org lain tu la yang kurang pada diri sendr..

Big world
Says he wants to see the light for once,
Well maybe if you try

It's so sad
Babe don't look so sad
I've got it wrong today

And if she doesn't go your way
Look up to blue skies and say hey
It's ok it's ok

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